Monday, March 15, 2010

My Savior is Psychadelic!

This is a description of 7:55am - 10:34am this morning, March 15, 2010.

***THIS BLOWS MY MIND****

I wake up this morning around 7:30 preparing to get ready for class. Driving across the UWF bridge I see a white BMW 325i swerving about 4 feet off the road. By nature I think...JARED BAKER. I race forward from about 300 feet away to see if I am correct. He gives me the signal to meet before class, I confirm with a militant style hand gesture. Once arriving to school, we park and I hop into this car.

7:55am - 8:10am We talk in his car for about 10 minutes before class. (I leave my keys in his car AND AM NOT AWARE UNTIL 9:50)*

8:10am - 8:30am I walk to class, and arrive sit in my chair, waiting for class to begin.

8:30am - 9:45am Class starts, mr professor is giving our grades aloud based on our last 4 digits of our student ID. I conveniently left my wallet at home. After class I had to step up to the teacher to ask for my grade, I left my wallet at home therefore I did not know my student ID number when he called out the grades accordingly during class time. As i walk out of class i realize I have no keys. Something hits me.*

3 Important Factors

1. No Phone (no communication)
2. No Wallet (no identification)
3. No Keys (no transporation)


9:45am - 10:17am I am walking to the University Commons and on the way I see a Pine tree, and beside it stands tree with no leaves, or color of life. Next, within seconds, a slew of birds land on both trees. The birds where a dark grey/brown mix. They blended in well with the pine cones on the pine tree. On the naked tree with no leaves, the birds appeared as little pine cones, frozen in state. From the Library to the commons I write a diddy in my head about how pine cones and birds are alike in how they fall and fly from trees. VERY COOL. Now I continue along and see a full grown tree that has orange leaves on the left half (from my view), and green leaves on the right half (from my view). This blew my mind! (The whole time walking to the commons I am looking around awestruck at the world around me.)

Right when walking into the commons a girl says from about 6 feet behind me, "what are you looking at?". I turn around and start explaining what I have seen traveling from the Library to the Commons, (which is only about 150 yards!) She then points at her ear and laughs! She is talking in her bluetooth headset. We both laugh pretty heavily and walk off.

This is still in between 9:50 and 10:17am. Once in the Commons I play piano for about 20+ minutes. I transpose a Doors intro of a song into another key. And I am playing better than I ever have before, tempo, creativity, and hand eye coordination (movement). Also creating a new piano piece. Now ready to leave I search my keys, walking all of my steps backwards from the Commons, to class, then to my car. Walking to my car I have a million thoughts at where they could be.... Then I find this....


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It says: "Bobby, Keys are in glove box. You left them in my car. IM HIGH!! Peace Out - Jared"

10:17am - 10:34am I am beyond stoked. Now I begin to drive home. Anyone who has been in my car while I drive knows that I am an aggresive driver. While on the way home from school I am patient on 3 different accounts where I wanted to rush past different vehicles. Each of the 3 times I did not drive aggressively, but I drove with patience. It actually worked out nicely and it was a pleasant and enjoyable ride home. Once in my neighborhood, a song comes on the radio station 95.7fm, hosted by K-Love. The song is talking about how earthly things are worthless, and how life truly is beyond the cage we are bound too. I am smiling beyond belief nodding my head in agreement. Once entering Woodbine Springs I begin to pass the neighborhood pond. During this time I notice weather is the best I have seen this year. Two beautiful red cardinals fly ten feet from my window as I am driving. One vivid blue jay flies past as I am approaching the stop sign to my road. Now a row of five gorgeous trees with white buds are lining the road. Red, White, and Blue. Not to mention all of this beauty within a 15 second time frame passing the pond.




CONCLUSION 10:55 My point is, this world is BEAUTIFUL and fading but, what lies beyond this moment, here on earth? No one knows, no one can prove it. But I have lived 22 years of my life. I have experienced many many things. Drugs, parties, sex, alcohol, traveling, music life, sports, vacations. And I have never seen so much worth and joy besides when I was living my life and focusing on what Christ has for me. And reading his word, ON MY OWN, focusing on what he has to tell me, and not the church, or family, friends, and everything else that can lead a man astray. These 3 things (the church, family, and friends) are indeed important and good. But the most important is YOU and THE LORD.

This is my account of March 15, 2010. From 7:55am - 10:34am. I hope this brightens you day almost as much as it has radiated mine. :) I love you all. And pass this to a friend.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Dear Messiah,

I have been crucifying you daily, by the hour sometimes. The other day even, I did it twice in less than 10 minutes. I am completely ashamed of who I have become and almost have no desire to get close with people. (outside of a few friends i play around some music with, this seems to help me, I am learning, but still is not sufficient).

I just want to taste your love again. Thank you for listening to me when I am on my hands and knees, you really do love me, and I want to do your will. Please help me through this. I know you will. You are Almighty. I am giving up everything that has kept me from you at this moment. Restore me into the man I once was becoming, I want to be him, and I want him to reflect you.

The grave outside of this home I am in is calling my name, I love you and will talk to you continually tonight, I look forward to raising my hands tonight and singing out to you.

you are my love.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Family

I am going to make it a point to have a very close family. I am not happy at all with what my family is or who we have become. It is like my room home is a dormant cave of bullshit that people just come to sleep in and watch episodes of American Idol.

Sad thing is, I do not care to change any of it.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Too big when feeling small

This will be short and concise. I hope to update more.

But as of lately i feel completely psychotic. Almost want to talk to a stranger about everything that is weighing me down, or a psychiatrist. My dad majored in psychology. But that wont help me.

To put it simple.... With life, you have to take bites at your own pace, a lot of people put the food on the plate, or might even be the plate. But they should not push you to what to eat first. You are a guest. I feel very very torn apart inside. Trying to type this is worthless because no one can really ever get the right words out.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Seperation of the army will bring a Leader my way. I hope she, and know she is a very good. This is a good thing.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

California! My West Coast Experience

This alleged "Macbook Pro" wont save my facebook videos, so here is a blog!

So i flew into Orange County yesterday around 10am to see my great friend of 6 years Sarah Huffman. We started off her house to finish her resume for the Falling Whistles internship. We then headed to Venice Beach to drop it off. No one answered the door for about 6 minutes but then David came to the door and we got too see their Head Quarters, and i got a whistle, as well as they took my card and information and are going to contact me about bringing the movement to the East Coast (Pensacola, Florida), here is the site directily please check this amazing group out. (www.fallingwhistles.com) I was even able to get a whistle, check the twitter to see pics. (www.twitter.com/skrillabobcat)

Next we proceeded to the Venice Beach strip, saw the graffiti wall, basketball courts, all the crazy people passing out info for making medicinal marijuana more legal, and alot of class acts, and my favorite of all, a huge drum circle! you can see alot of what goes on around here on my Twitter account (www.twitter.com/skrillabobcat) I got an amazing Grateful Dead shirt, and a Led Zep shirt. Next we got some Tito's Taco's. Sooo good, local joint.

Then headed to Los Angeles, Hollywood, Chinatown, Burbank, and everything around that area. There is so much life around here. We stayed last night, and i woke up this morning at Sarah's friends house, Kristal. She has a rad mom, i woke up to John Lennon, and her apartment is like a resort. Its pretty cool. This Coast has alot to offer. Full of life, young people, happiness, and just entertainment. This was only my first day. I am sooo stoked for the next week.

This week will include: WARPED TOUR IN SAN DIEGO, DISNEY LAND, and today...CORNERSTONE CHURCH! i get to see Francis Chan speak :)

Such a blessing! Ill see ya all soon! keep posted.


Cited:

Falling Whistles - www.fallingwhistles.com
Francis Chan book - www.crazylovebook.com
My Facebook - www.facebook.com/skrillabobcat
My Twitter - www.twitter.com/skrillabobcat

Monday, August 3, 2009

Starting the book entitled CRAZY LOVE. I will keep my thoughts and notes posted on here throughout my reading. Anyone interested?

Saturday, June 27, 2009

im so tired

of friends who have no cars, friends who have no jobs, friends who dont work for anything. and then they expect me to pay for them and drive them around expecting nothing back. thing is though, if they had a job, or had a car, OR EVEN WERE AT AN ATTEMPT TO FIND ANY OF THE ABOVE. i would not mind. i am just tired of having so many flat out lazy ass friends. I just want to drop some Esoteric knowledge on you. But you just wouldn't understand while you live the life you do.

Here is my rant. I am not sorry if it sounds mean because i have been holding this in for months. America, stop being lazy, and earn something for once. Men, you need to man up. And women, you need to man up. EVERYONE get a set of balls.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

I am back

I turned away from blogger for a little bit. But I am back. I have been into the short and quick details of life with twitter from my cell phone, that i forgot about this nice site. But now i have something to say.

I officially have a hate for alcohol. I rarely drink it. But i see too many people around me abuse it. I hate watching that. And the aftermath always seems to hurt everyone close to them, and costs the drinker to lose something of importance to them.

I have started a graphic design firm with my friend Josh Rice as well. koolmoose designs. We found two other guys around town who are working with us, Jesse Jackson, and Richard Humphreys who are both talented graphic designers and web masters! This will be a fun journey. My first offical business attempt. And hopefully a very successful.

I do not work at Starbucks anymore! I have been getting feelings from God to quit there the last 3 months or so, then randomly i show up to work and boom, i get accused of asking for a tip, and then i was let go. It sucks leaving a company i have such a deep passion for, and love more than anything. And especially being accused of something so silly. But it is obvious now to me that i should have listened to what God was telling me. I am happy though. In the long run i can come back and have an impact as someone higher in the company rather than a barista. But at this point I do not even know if I care to do that. There are so many many more opportunities that have been flowing onto my plate like a flood.

I met a girl named Julie. she is so great. I have only really known her since Memorial Day though. So i will keep this paragraph as short as i have known her.... ok. :)

This is my life as of lately. I might be working at Target. I think i would enjoy the job. Or maybe stick with the graphic design firm. God is providing though. I read through 1 John. It is one of my favorite books in the bible.

And for a conclusion!!!....i gotta go work in the yard all day now! PEACE AND LOVE EVERYONE :)

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Becoming a man

I am moving out next month, taking on more responsibility, you know the drill. Moving out is changing me in a million ways as it does everyone else. And this feels like the perfect time.

I am not into blogspot lately. I wanted to post a long informative letter of information in here for everyone. but honestly i just dont care if any of you know. haha. because if you cared, you would ask. :)


I am now retiring from blogspot. I will be on here to read everyones posts, but not really saying much anymore.

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Thursday, May 14, 2009

This morning

I am realizing how to control the sound and anecdotes in my rhymes. Metaphors, similes, etc... This will take a while to get down as good as Rakim, KRS one, etc.. But i know i can do it easily if i work hard. i do not really see a boundary i can not overcome when it comes to music, i really don't think their are boundaries no one can not overcome unless they have a physical or mental disability. It IS ALL ABOUT HOW HARD YOU WORK!


go hard or get the hell out

Friday, May 8, 2009

the sovereignty of God

My mother has always told me that as a person I can never rely on people in this world at all. And the only people that truly love you is your family (biological family). To this day i still believe this. She has also always told me this verse i have listed below constantly through life, i always listened, but never comprehended it fully in how she means it until now.


2 Corinthians 4:18 (New International Version)

18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.


And another verse that really hit me full on today is this one. I have been going through alot of personal changes. I have had many hard times over the last 5 months. I have remained strong though and lived a fine life, but never paid attention to the whole picture. A true friend will give you the truth, even if it hurts...

Proverbs 27:6 (New International Version)

6 Wounds from a friend can be trusted,
but an enemy multiplies kisses.



i know this was not well written, but it was not written to sound great. This was an entry left here for me too see to get strength from when i need it. And i am sure the point got across too all who do read it.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

i am sorry blogspot

Twitter has stolen my heart, and you blogspot have died in a sense. I enjoy the quick recording of events, rather thank trying to leave blogs on the internet. so step your game up or you just might lose me. Or next time i might just come back with something most of you don't understand.

Friday, May 1, 2009

I have not written in a while

I never have until recently payed attention to how many different ways people dissect and look at the world. i know everyone does see things differently, and lives their own path. But i always wonder so many things on my level, and then try to comprehend on someone else level. i want to start reading alot about Aldous Huxley, and his writings.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aldous_Huxley

other than that. i have been really busy in thought. rebuilding my 1977 vw bus, working on music (a little, school is out, so more time can be put into it), and working about 32 hours a week and looking for more work. thats all really.


i want fruit of the mind!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Playing a show at suite or the edge soon. Keep posted for dates. Prob sometime in may

Saturday, April 18, 2009

God is soooooooo great

Adriana is such motivation. thank you.




i feel very good about the rough draft of the songs i did. I have only been doing the hip hop / rap thing for a couple of months. and its going well. I have my heart in it fully. No questions asked. I love it more than anything... I can feel the passion i put into it like my father does his work.

Now i know what true love is. time to earn the prize.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Not my typical blog post....

Ok, so normally i do not start a blog post with something this silly and just not to interesting. But why the fudge does every damn lightbulb not work after your lamp falls on the ground? (If you give me a smart ass scientific answer then go eat your own butthole) But seriously, forget the scientific mumbo jumbo, i really want to know why the hell there is not a light bulb for the "late night computer user who grabs his laptop from across the desk in complete darkness and accidently knocks his lamp down but needs light" guy. So now I am screwed up the butt completely with no light, and a bright ass screen for about 16 minutes adjusting to the constant light.

Technology is a whore. today was great. Keep looking forward, never ever back. I finally learned this as of this week completely. And even when something is behind, as well in the future, it can still be worthless. Life is an art never mastered. So learn asap all you can. And teach me at the same time...hahaha

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Follow My TWITTER....tweet!!

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Saturday, April 4, 2009

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Wednesday, April 1, 2009

22 years of age!!!

What a year 21 has been. God has taken me to so so many different places, met so many life changing people. It's been an amazing year. I wish i had the time to tell of all i wish i could. But the thing that sticks out the most, and the one thing I have always had the most trouble with was being able to be ok with being single, and trusting God's plan for my life. And now I am! :)

another year, another class, another meeting, another life. One love.