this blog site

I do not know yet what classification it would be under. About myself and my life, or based on my study of the Bible, Christ, and my Christian walk as well. But as of this last week I have had alot of different emotions and feelings running around in my life that I am unfamiliar with. I know how easy it is for a Christian to say, "God is in control of my life and everything will be well and good in the end.", or something of that nature. And this is very true. Even if as a human we try to take control of our own life as if we can change the Lord's plan we will eternally fail. I am not saying this in a negative way. But when it comes down too it we as Christians need to pay Christ the respect he deserves. And I for one know that I could do a better job. When it comes to trying to understand these emotions and feelings I mentioned earlier it is hard to give everything to Christ, but what else can you do?

And on a different note I need to deal with today for it is at hand. And stop thinking about the future so much. I have the future ahead for its very own purpose. I sometimes miss out on the seconds, minutes, and hours of today. The Lord made seconds before minutes and hours because we need to take things slower. Dig it?

Christmas Past..

Well Christmas was great this year. Spent the entire day with my family, Nick (my sisters boyfriend), and Phil, (my mothers childhood friend). We opened presents around 9:30 am, then played a game of Monopoly which i completely killed them in. Ate a huge lunch, and then watched movies and we all played with our presents all day. It was grand. Then around 9:35 pm Justin came over and we rushed to see Benjamin Button at the movie theater. Lasted til 12:59 am. Longest movie ever. But really great. Inspirational. Many underlying values in the movie.

And here are the gifts!




Cole Haan Genuine Leather Messenger Bag



Apple Ipod Classic 120gb Black



Cole Haan Nantucket Oxford



Minnetonka Traditional Double Bottom Softsole



The Essential Jefferson Airplane



Hanes Medium 5-pack V neck shirts



Some kind of super comfortable slipper from Wal-Mart



Adidas Gym Bag



Set of 5 socks. (no pic online)
A $25 Itunes giftcard
A $20 Walden Books Giftcard
$30 in cold hard cash!




Great Christmas. I love my family. And I wish i knew if Jesus did anything on his birthday. I wonder if all the people that want to call it X-mas or something else even know that the entire point of this Holiday is the birth of Christ. Love!

Music and things

Listening to John Denver's "Leaving, on a jet plane" from 1967 gives me chills and just the different sense of heart that the music had from that time period. I agree some music from my generation can be pretty ridiculous and lack many of the pure traits from the 40's-80's (past generations) style of music that is the foundation for artists of my generation, but that is why music is called influential. I appreciate music from my time, and from the past.

Lordy Lordy!

I always have such great stories to tell about what God is doing in my life. It is simply amazing how he is working in my life as well as the people around me. It is 12:34 pm and I am too tired to type it all, but if you ever want to hear about it just ask or call me. I would be happy to share with you.

Good night everyone.

troubled times

i have a great friend by the name of justin, who suprised me with a record player today. very nice thing for him to do. and i was able to help a few people out today, it felt good.

but right at the end of a great night, (where i am extremely sick feeling) i get a phone call about something i supposedly did wrong. i have been working so hard on being a better person, and Christian on top of that. I am struggling so much, nearly break down, and i know it sounds silly.

All i can really do is pray and trust God. I read in Ecclesiastes tonight that "for in much wisdom is much grief. And he who increases knowledge increases sorrow" Ecclesiastes 1:18, i feel it pertains to this situation. Not that I have supreme knowledge. But in a different sense. So please pray for me. I love you.

I love Jesus

I am excited for Christmas. Now that I am of age, and finally holding a firm faith to really appreciate what it means, this is going to be a great conclusion to '08.

On a note I never speak about, I am still constantly struggling being the "man" that I know I need to be in a relationship. I'll talk more about this later though. PJC lab is closing!@#!

Disappointment

I hate when i say things that can be hurtful to people. I never try to allow or even let something hurtful leave my mouth. But at times things come out wrong (which i am good at), or when joking someone might take what I say serious. I despise when that happens. I am left feeling sick, and in a sense "down" for a few days. It's that serious. Almost makes me want to leave completely somehow. Too bad I have to stay here.

Oh well. Pray about it. Apologize. Move On.

This is exam week. I have a statistics exam in 2 hours, working on the study guide now, but I had to release this blog, it was eating at my brain. Oh well. I love you.

p.s. (everyone says I think too much. I wish i could somehow make my mind take a break.)

8 bars

I swear I got the soul of soul in my body,
Perform surgery like a Huxtable, call me Cosby.
Live he by the day, live me on the nightly,
levitate your brain with these words quietly.
You swore you never seen, never knew, something quite like me,
yeah the king of this jungle, swear I'm not lioning.
Graduated to CEO, and I'm not firing,
but i will steal your girl from your team, constantly pirating.

8 Bars - bshell. aka skrilla bobcat