Seperation of the army will bring a Leader my way. I hope she, and know she is a very good. This is a good thing.

California! My West Coast Experience

This alleged "Macbook Pro" wont save my facebook videos, so here is a blog!

So i flew into Orange County yesterday around 10am to see my great friend of 6 years Sarah Huffman. We started off her house to finish her resume for the Falling Whistles internship. We then headed to Venice Beach to drop it off. No one answered the door for about 6 minutes but then David came to the door and we got too see their Head Quarters, and i got a whistle, as well as they took my card and information and are going to contact me about bringing the movement to the East Coast (Pensacola, Florida), here is the site directily please check this amazing group out. (www.fallingwhistles.com) I was even able to get a whistle, check the twitter to see pics. (www.twitter.com/skrillabobcat)

Next we proceeded to the Venice Beach strip, saw the graffiti wall, basketball courts, all the crazy people passing out info for making medicinal marijuana more legal, and alot of class acts, and my favorite of all, a huge drum circle! you can see alot of what goes on around here on my Twitter account (www.twitter.com/skrillabobcat) I got an amazing Grateful Dead shirt, and a Led Zep shirt. Next we got some Tito's Taco's. Sooo good, local joint.

Then headed to Los Angeles, Hollywood, Chinatown, Burbank, and everything around that area. There is so much life around here. We stayed last night, and i woke up this morning at Sarah's friends house, Kristal. She has a rad mom, i woke up to John Lennon, and her apartment is like a resort. Its pretty cool. This Coast has alot to offer. Full of life, young people, happiness, and just entertainment. This was only my first day. I am sooo stoked for the next week.

This week will include: WARPED TOUR IN SAN DIEGO, DISNEY LAND, and today...CORNERSTONE CHURCH! i get to see Francis Chan speak :)

Such a blessing! Ill see ya all soon! keep posted.


Cited:

Falling Whistles - www.fallingwhistles.com
Francis Chan book - www.crazylovebook.com
My Facebook - www.facebook.com/skrillabobcat
My Twitter - www.twitter.com/skrillabobcat

Starting the book entitled CRAZY LOVE. I will keep my thoughts and notes posted on here throughout my reading. Anyone interested?

im so tired

of friends who have no cars, friends who have no jobs, friends who dont work for anything. and then they expect me to pay for them and drive them around expecting nothing back. thing is though, if they had a job, or had a car, OR EVEN WERE AT AN ATTEMPT TO FIND ANY OF THE ABOVE. i would not mind. i am just tired of having so many flat out lazy ass friends. I just want to drop some Esoteric knowledge on you. But you just wouldn't understand while you live the life you do.

Here is my rant. I am not sorry if it sounds mean because i have been holding this in for months. America, stop being lazy, and earn something for once. Men, you need to man up. And women, you need to man up. EVERYONE get a set of balls.

I am back

I turned away from blogger for a little bit. But I am back. I have been into the short and quick details of life with twitter from my cell phone, that i forgot about this nice site. But now i have something to say.

I officially have a hate for alcohol. I rarely drink it. But i see too many people around me abuse it. I hate watching that. And the aftermath always seems to hurt everyone close to them, and costs the drinker to lose something of importance to them.

I have started a graphic design firm with my friend Josh Rice as well. koolmoose designs. We found two other guys around town who are working with us, Jesse Jackson, and Richard Humphreys who are both talented graphic designers and web masters! This will be a fun journey. My first offical business attempt. And hopefully a very successful.

I do not work at Starbucks anymore! I have been getting feelings from God to quit there the last 3 months or so, then randomly i show up to work and boom, i get accused of asking for a tip, and then i was let go. It sucks leaving a company i have such a deep passion for, and love more than anything. And especially being accused of something so silly. But it is obvious now to me that i should have listened to what God was telling me. I am happy though. In the long run i can come back and have an impact as someone higher in the company rather than a barista. But at this point I do not even know if I care to do that. There are so many many more opportunities that have been flowing onto my plate like a flood.

I met a girl named Julie. she is so great. I have only really known her since Memorial Day though. So i will keep this paragraph as short as i have known her.... ok. :)

This is my life as of lately. I might be working at Target. I think i would enjoy the job. Or maybe stick with the graphic design firm. God is providing though. I read through 1 John. It is one of my favorite books in the bible.

And for a conclusion!!!....i gotta go work in the yard all day now! PEACE AND LOVE EVERYONE :)

Becoming a man

I am moving out next month, taking on more responsibility, you know the drill. Moving out is changing me in a million ways as it does everyone else. And this feels like the perfect time.

I am not into blogspot lately. I wanted to post a long informative letter of information in here for everyone. but honestly i just dont care if any of you know. haha. because if you cared, you would ask. :)


I am now retiring from blogspot. I will be on here to read everyones posts, but not really saying much anymore.

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This morning

I am realizing how to control the sound and anecdotes in my rhymes. Metaphors, similes, etc... This will take a while to get down as good as Rakim, KRS one, etc.. But i know i can do it easily if i work hard. i do not really see a boundary i can not overcome when it comes to music, i really don't think their are boundaries no one can not overcome unless they have a physical or mental disability. It IS ALL ABOUT HOW HARD YOU WORK!


go hard or get the hell out

the sovereignty of God

My mother has always told me that as a person I can never rely on people in this world at all. And the only people that truly love you is your family (biological family). To this day i still believe this. She has also always told me this verse i have listed below constantly through life, i always listened, but never comprehended it fully in how she means it until now.


2 Corinthians 4:18 (New International Version)

18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

And another verse that really hit me full on today is this one. I have been going through alot of personal changes. I have had many hard times over the last 5 months. I have remained strong though and lived a fine life, but never paid attention to the whole picture. A true friend will give you the truth, even if it hurts...

Proverbs 27:6 (New International Version)

6 Wounds from a friend can be trusted,
but an enemy multiplies kisses.


i know this was not well written, but it was not written to sound great. This was an entry left here for me too see to get strength from when i need it. And i am sure the point got across too all who do read it.

i am sorry blogspot

Twitter has stolen my heart, and you blogspot have died in a sense. I enjoy the quick recording of events, rather thank trying to leave blogs on the internet. so step your game up or you just might lose me. Or next time i might just come back with something most of you don't understand.

I have not written in a while

I never have until recently payed attention to how many different ways people dissect and look at the world. i know everyone does see things differently, and lives their own path. But i always wonder so many things on my level, and then try to comprehend on someone else level. i want to start reading alot about Aldous Huxley, and his writings.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aldous_Huxley

other than that. i have been really busy in thought. rebuilding my 1977 vw bus, working on music (a little, school is out, so more time can be put into it), and working about 32 hours a week and looking for more work. thats all really.


i want fruit of the mind!

Playing a show at suite or the edge soon. Keep posted for dates. Prob sometime in may

God is soooooooo great

Adriana is such motivation. thank you.




i feel very good about the rough draft of the songs i did. I have only been doing the hip hop / rap thing for a couple of months. and its going well. I have my heart in it fully. No questions asked. I love it more than anything... I can feel the passion i put into it like my father does his work.

Now i know what true love is. time to earn the prize.

Not my typical blog post....

Ok, so normally i do not start a blog post with something this silly and just not to interesting. But why the fudge does every damn lightbulb not work after your lamp falls on the ground? (If you give me a smart ass scientific answer then go eat your own butthole) But seriously, forget the scientific mumbo jumbo, i really want to know why the hell there is not a light bulb for the "late night computer user who grabs his laptop from across the desk in complete darkness and accidently knocks his lamp down but needs light" guy. So now I am screwed up the butt completely with no light, and a bright ass screen for about 16 minutes adjusting to the constant light.

Technology is a whore. today was great. Keep looking forward, never ever back. I finally learned this as of this week completely. And even when something is behind, as well in the future, it can still be worthless. Life is an art never mastered. So learn asap all you can. And teach me at the same time...hahaha

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22 years of age!!!

What a year 21 has been. God has taken me to so so many different places, met so many life changing people. It's been an amazing year. I wish i had the time to tell of all i wish i could. But the thing that sticks out the most, and the one thing I have always had the most trouble with was being able to be ok with being single, and trusting God's plan for my life. And now I am! :)

another year, another class, another meeting, another life. One love.

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"In the early morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house, and went away to a secluded place, and was praying there." Mark 1:35

It's hard for me to imagine Jesus needing prayer. The Son of God who came from heaven and helped create the universe...the one who not only had seen the Father's glory but was filled with it? He needed prayer? Yet there it is, right in the text. I can't help but think about how cool it would have been to see or hear Jesus praying! I wonder if he brought a cup of coffee with Him. I'm sure He did.

I am learning to enjoy the early morning hours, especially at our house when everyone is still asleep. There is something special about the quiet & stillness of a new day. Your thoughts are fresh. You can hear the birds welcoming a new day as they worship their Creator. It's such a blessing & encouragment to know that each day is a fresh start and filled with new mercies from the Lord.

Each of us need's our own time with Jesus to praise Him, worship Him and hear from Him. If the Son of God needed time alone in prayer, how much more do we?

I do not understand

Why people don't work harder. Why people don't want to make others smile. Why people can be so bitter when working. I know i can fail in all of these categories, but the difference between "me, and "them" is that i strive to never fail in any of them.

it looked like this....

New weekly thing. Makes life so stress free. Album coming soon!!!

And he walks

Every move is lead with a tremble, and trailed with a drip drop of sweat. Carrying himself like the cool cat the crowd believes he is, he slaps hands with a fellow believer. Walking away in gratification. Mission never completed he burrows around like a groundhog, but always as slow as deer in head lights. Like TI said, "just live ya life". And love the whole way through.

God Bless you my friends.

i really miss more than anything

the past summers, feeling younger and more carefree than ever. The feeling is still possible to attain. But to find someone who can play that roll as your partner in crime, and to have someone who fulfills that unexplainable gap in your heart that gives you complete happiness is hard to find.

I love you.

all i need

here is a reference to the word need. All i need is a woman who loves God, and lives for him. Where did they all go? Last night i brought up God when at a party, and people were acting as if, "oh damn its the leper watch out and don't listen to him he is crazy."

Ladies, where did the good ones go?

move along move along

God has been throwing me curve balls for the last 4 years. Actually sliders at about 86 mph. (i was great at hitting curve balls when i played ball) And i am finally starting to pay attention to him. It is silly how many times that I do not pay attention to what he has to say. AND, at the same time, its funny how i will pay attention to what he says and twist it into my own view or perspective and take away from his purpose to fulfill my own desires. (not literally funny...I just don't understand my deliberate disobedience) Here is a good verse that has been very helpful lately.

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.
”- Isaiah 55:8-9

--on another note--

today i had a chance to help someone out. Last night i did as well. Today though when i helped someone i didn't know if they genuinely needed help. Or if they just wanted to take advantage of being able to get something from someone else. But i thought of this verse below as well, and I am going to try and live up too it as much as possible. Even though it is sooo incredibly hard. here is the verse:

Matthew 25:34-46 (New International Version)

³⁴"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. ³⁵For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, ³⁶I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me. ³⁷"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? ³⁸When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? ³⁹When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' ⁴⁰"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me. ⁴¹"Then he will say to those on his left, 'Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. ⁴²For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, ⁴³I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me. ⁴⁴"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?' ⁴⁵"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.' ⁴⁶"Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life."

The Lord works in such beautiful ways. open up to him whenever you get a chance!

PS...leave your phone behind for one day, and count how many times you think of wanting your phone, and add it up...you wont believe how much time you give to your phone and not your Lord.

for days and days

Constantly I run into troubles in my life. But every time the strife gets too much for me to handle God scoops me up and takes care, and shows why he is in control. I never understand exactly what to do, but he takes care of me. It's offical, Matthew 6 is my favorite chapter of the Bible.

God Bless everyone today. He loves you.

i hope..

I hope i never get this wrapped into world change and philosophy....or maybe i do? :)

Reaching out...

Lately I have been seeing alot of people, random people at that matter, and just for some reason praying for them, or even trying to do something out of kindness to show love too them. Really don't see why with my own eyes, but I know for a fact God has a purpose behind it. In 1 John 4 there is a great example:

1 John 4 : 20 If anyone says, `I love God', and he hates his brother, he is telling a lie. If he does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen? 21 God gave us this law. The person who loves God must love his brother also.

An example from earlier today, my friend Mike went to coinstar because he needed some cash at the time. And when he went in line to pay for the bread and hot dog's he picked up while there the lady in front of him and paid and just walked off, and did not tell him she paid for it. This is a good example of obeying God, and not boasting of the act as well...

Jeremiah 9:23 This is what the LORD says: "Let not the wise man boast of his wisdom or the strong man boast of his strength or the rich man boast of his riches,

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Proberbs 31

10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.

¹¹ Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.

¹² She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.

¹³ She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.

¹⁴ She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.

¹⁵ She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.

¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.

¹⁷ She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.

¹⁸ She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.

¹⁹ In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.

²⁰ She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.

²¹ When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.

²² She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.

²³ Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.

²⁴ She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.

²⁵ She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.

²⁶ She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

²⁷ She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.

²⁸ Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:

²⁹ "Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all."

³⁰ Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

³¹ Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

As rough as life can be...

I am really excited to grow into the man God has intentions for me to be. I see many people who are highly respected, and infinitely wealthy, and many people find this to be success in life. And this is a very prestigious form of success. In no way am I talking down upon wealth or respect. Yet at the same time I see men who live a mere life lacking alot of the things that the average person would like to have, and that man that lacks many of these things has this aura about him, and a way in which he speaks that i feel is the most immaculate thing a man or woman for that matter could have about themself, and that would single handedly and only be God working through their life in every action that they take. (and yes there are mrere men who lack everything, or may have everything in many other ways, but i am speaking only of what is mentioned)

Who is too say that the highly respected man, and infinitely wealthy man do not have God in their life? They very well may have the Lord. And for the mere man, who knows if behind closed doors if he becomes another creature? A vile and disgust vermin from the slum of the earth.

Jeramiah 4: 18 Your own conduct and actions have brought this upon you. This is your punishment. How bitter it is! How it pierces to the heart!

and when in a time of detrimental trouble or confusion, direct your ways accordingly...

Deuteronomy 4:29 But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.

Ever think.....

that you would be the person that would turn to things you hated to try and deal with heartbreaking issues? maybe all motivation to live, and be successful shot out the door, because you had so much of yourself invested into someone that held your heart, or something that you had a deep passion and love for doing? lately that is how i feel. I do not understand how my Christian friends, or better yet acquaintances, either A) witnessing to me like I have never heard of God before, as if I am a lost soul needing to know the Lord. Or B) Just flat out don't give a shit to grow with other Christians because their life is way to busy, or they do not take me serious. Both of these maybe not be true at all. But this is how i broke alot of it down. I have not slept in about 31 hours, I am probably just losing my head a bit. Blah Blah Blah. No need to bring presents to my pitty party. hahaha, just venting a little bit.

always going

So often lately i feel that i do not even deserve God's grace. And then I think again....I really do not even deserve it at all. And that is the beauty of it. I know i sin constantly. And it is sad to see how many people are not open about the fact that they do, or try to hide it, but really not a soul on this earth is right, correct, perfect, or anywhere near having the right to judge another. And this sentence is a perfect example of itself. Maybe people are open to the fact they sin. Not necessarily with me, or you. But with God. There is so much more to everything than we can see. It is really a joke to try and come to some kind of earthly understanding of something we did not create, or understand from the beginning. Is that not where faith comes in? If we really were supposed to know "scientific meaning" or fact of the earth, why did the first men from earth not record it somehow in their own language, and it get translated down the line? We were born with minds, so there was somehow a form of communication. God is really the only way I can imagine. And i love studying the atheist view and other belief's or non-belief's.

Sorry for that tangent at the end. So many people you feel are the best friends, are never around anymore, and so many people you thought never would be close again will come back. It is a cycle. We are human, needs, emotions, and wants change. Nothing is forever, (except for diamonds apparently). So why be satisfied with the thing of the world. When God never has left?

Here is a great blog to look at by Jamie Prip a pastor from up Minnesota: http://jamieprip.blogspot.com/2009/01/there-must-be-more.html

got this from a blog i follow

I read this on a website today and wanted to pass it along!
Blessings,
Jamie

Ever wonder what would happen if we treated our Bible like we treat our cell phone?

What if we carried it around in our purses or pockets?

What if we flipped through it several time a day?

What if we turned back to go get it if we forgot it?

What if we used it to receive messages from the text?

What if we treated it like we couldn't live without it?

What if we gave it to kids as gifts?

What if we used it when we traveled?

What if we used it in case of emergency?

This is something to make you go... hmm... where is my Bible?

Oh, and one more thing....... Unlike our cell phone, we don't have to worry about our Bible being disconnected because Jesus already paid the bill.

And no dropped calls!

Alot

This is the first post I am making with our new President, Barack Obama. So many things have happened in the last 48 hours, and even more since December 31st. My life has spun in so many circles, gone forward, gone backward, and even side to side. I never have the slightest idea where God is directing me. But am I honestly supposed to know? I think not. But it's ok. The fact I know I can confide in the Lord, and know that regardless of who leads our country, or whatever girl I end up spending my life with, he has that complete control. And it is the most supreme feeling in my eyes.

I really could write out about 5,000 words explaining the madness of lately, but it would really not lead to too much. But to say the least that means the most, just trust the Lord. Everything falls together like a puzzle rather than a crashing economy. Lol. Here is some good scripture that I hope will help someone else in their time of troubles, just as it did myself. Same verse, different traslations...


He who heeds the word wisely will find good,
And whoever trusts in the LORD, happy is he.
---Proverbs 16:20 (New King James Version)

Those who listen to instruction will prosper;
those who trust the Lord will be joyful.
---Proverbs 16:20 (New Living Translation)

Outlook

Living pure is the only way to understand true meaning. Obscurities, and false distractions of life's purpose have become the mecca of the earthly demise of man. Everything on earth is made of very basic, yet complex elements. Many of these understood, and many more yet to be discovered. Man will never know the underlying meaning behind science, mathematics, or anything of any nature. We have philosophies, as well as theories to help prescribe meaning, as well as understanding. But each day is a practice in hopes to discover the root, of being that is as evident as color reveals itself to our eyes.

If wishes came true

I would wish for a ploc chart of decision making in life. There is so much going on. It is funny how when in school, my life is so hectic, study, class, study, work. Every day for 3 months. And when i get out of school, it is constant Bible study, and growing with God. I know the Lord wants me to concentrate on school, but as his child I do need to set him first. Such a challenge for me.

So everyone go listen to Paul Simon and feel as lighthearted and as lovely as I do at this moment. As well as some Peter Paul and Mary. There song is on my page right now, and prob will be for a week at the most. So check it now!

*Hey Jesus, sorry I study so much, i promise i never forget about you. I love you much. And thank you. For everything!*

Antonio Apap

"If someone lies to you once, shame on them. If they lie to you again, shame on you! A person would have to be a damn fool to trust someone who has lied to them before."

let me just explain

When learning something new or trying to succeed at something do you ever give up if you really want it to work? Say your goal was too make 7 free throws out of 10 on a basketball goal. But on your first attempt you can only make 3 of ten. Once this happens do you give up? What reason do you have to give up other than maybe you are just a lazy person? This is the goal you set for yourself so why not strive and work towards it? So 3 weeks later after practicing your heart out you end up making the 7 out of 10 which was your goal. Congratulations! Was there anything negative that came out of this? I would say no...

When learning something new or trying to succeed at something do you ever give up if you really want it to work? Say your goal was to stick your a paper clip in an electric socket and to not get any shock whatsoever. Is this a goal? Yes. Is it attainable? No. Why do we as humans still attempt to make things work and try over and over again when we get the same result? I honestly have no idea. Maybe a sense of hope, or the chance of it working? Maybe the thrill of the gamble? It gets to the point of stupidity. When you repeat the same process over and over (say 3-4 years for instance) and get the same results, what is there to test again?

I learned this in a harsh way. I usually have to do things wrong, or experience them wrong anywhere from 3-5 times to really be shut down. And this has happened yet again still standing as a truth about myself.

The thing is when it comes to love, you do not need to ask yourself a new question. The same question lies for everyone. Different people do seek different answers to this question. But in the end we all want success. Unless our selfish minds detour us into desiring something that contains no positive aftermath. So with this being said, as opposed to asking a new question, we need to just find a new subject to test.

Simple, eh?....


And on a side note. I regret so many things, not that i have done. But that i did not do. Regret is real, viable, alive, and in your face. Live your life.